I always want to chat with him, want to meet him. But when i chat him, or he chat me, i don’t know what to say. I’m scared. I cannot act like there’s nothing happened before. Of course i really want to forget him, but i can’t. Everywhere i go, i remember him. Every single time i try to forget him, some people around me remind me of him. Every time i see the photo with him, the magazine from him, the messages from him(I cannot just delete it), the cute doll from him──that hanging on my bag everyday, the file from him, the song from him, some postcard from him, and some chat with him. I know this is crazy. I hate to be like this, like i just thinking of him every-second. If there’s the snack which I like, i wonder how if i eat it with him, if there’s a nice place i wonder how if i go there with him. I know he’s bad for me(some people said that) but i don’t know, i just want him. that’s all. I stalk him everyday and its hurt. But i still do that. I still cry at the same thing over and over again. I want to reset and try again. Try to let it flow(just like what he said). Try to not dispute small things. But its too late. He doesn’t like me anymore. He doesn’t care about me. He forget how we used to be. But i still remember all, from the first time when he said hey to me until he said he don’t care anymore. I hate the truth that i still love him even though he don’t care at all. You know what? I pray for him every time I talk with Allah.
| Mamam: | de tau ga yang cerita Titian Putri itu? |
| Aku: | hah? Putri Titian kali mam, yang mana? |
| Mamam: | iya itu yang tadi di tv. |
| Aku: | ih itu mah bukan Putri Titian =)) emang kenapa mam? |
| Mamam: | ya pokoknya yang tadi, itu yang orangtuanya cerai, terus ibunya nikah lagi tapi bapa tirinya baik banget sampe nabrakin diri demi beli susu anaknya.. |
| Aku: | .............Mam, itu kan ade yang cerita ke mamam ih! =)) |
| Mamam: | oh iyaya? salah ya? yaudah atuh hahahaha parahnya |
| Aku: | ih sugan hahahahaha |
OMG I CAN’T FIND THEM
THIS IS ME, EVERY FUCKING TIME
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| Lagi kumpul di Sukabumi kemarin. Merhatiin adik kaka yang masih kecil; Daffa(cakep, bulu mata lentik) dan Qifa(lucu sih... bulu mata lurus). | |
| Aku: | om Daus kenapa Daffa rambutnya kriwil tapi Qifa rambutnya lurus banget? |
| Om Daus: | Allah. |
| Aku: | hah? |
| Om Daus: | iya cuma Allah yang tau.. |
| Aku: | ih =)) |
| Kemarin di Sukabumi ceritanya lagi ngisi TTS super besar bareng aki dan mamam, karena keasikan ngisi TTS aki(yang sudah renta) pegel duduk terus. | |
| Aki: | *berdiri* brottttttprotpppprrrrt brott protttt brrpprtt prot |
| Aku: | HAHAHAHAHA AHAHAHA HAHA AHAHA AHAHAAAAH aduh aki! |
| Aki: | heh seuri geura! mun tos nini-nini engke ade ge hitutna jiga kieu *ngaleos* |
| uh masih ketawa sambil ngebayangin udah tua nanti tiap jalan kentut serem juga...... |
